My Daughter – Episode 3

MY DAUGHTER EPISODE 3
By Amah

“how could you? Why will you allow same mistake again? Even a primary or secondary school girl knows better than you that’s in the university” you are so daft, how can you be making same mistake all the time, and why are you coming to me to tell me you are pregnant again, don’t you know what you suppose to do or do i look like a doctor to you, I hate girls that are always waiting to be told what they have to do, listen, I don’t walk with stupid, foolish gals, I walk with smart ladies, mature, strong and independent ladies, you better get that into your skull, you see the way ladies flock around me , I can take my pick with any type i want, you should be lucky to have had opportunity to be with me, I don’t expect you to misuse it because many are out there, a whole lot of fishes in the ocean, so grow up, I expect more from you not coming to me with pregnancy, now what exactly do you want me to do, tell me Ibukun, what? I’m a son of a titled man and must not stain my fathers image and i will never allow anybody to step on it , I won’t let that happen, so if you know what’s good for you get rid of that thing, you know what to do already, I don’t know why I’m talking so much, I will give you enough cash to do that and maybe we should take a break after that because you are too childish for my liking…””

“aaah’ Obi, I thought you love me, I thought you truly care about me, this is not just my mistake, is ours…why are you putting all the blames on me…why? Only me knows what i went through during the first one, I did an abortion just as you requested, “I got rid of it” isn’t that what you wanted, I did all that to please you Obi, I still hurt from it anytime I look back and you are still asking me to “get rid of this one ” like some dustbin or nothing that matters , forgetting is a life, you were ones like it and if your mum has gotten ride of you , you will not be inexistence, it takes pain, Emotion and every home training i got to make such decision or I will rather say to “get rid of it” why are you treating me this way Obi, I love you you know that, it hurt so much to hear you say all you just said to me.”

I broke down and wept he came consoling me, and ask me what I wanted him to do, I asked him to please take responsibility he flared up again

“you know that’s not possible, I can’t do that so please come up with something else but definitely not this..

“why can’t you you take responsibility, why, is it because you already have someone you are getting married to, an Igbo lady, ooh, you think i won’t find out, look at you, you were just using me all this while and your main woman was somewhere getting ready to be married to you, and you actually think I’m stupid right, now listen Obi, I’m a Yoruba girl and will never change that for anything or anyone in this world, not for you or thousands of your type,and also I’m keeping this child, I made a mistake ones, I’m correcting it this time around, I will never walk down that passage of hell and pain again, never, because if anything ever happens to me you will go ahead and marry your heartthrob Igbo bride, and i will rot in the grave, no,God forbids such thing, it will never happen Obi, I will live with the Shame and disgrace I will bring to my father’s house but i will not get rid of this one and will not allow anyone to make me have inferiority complex, making me feel like I’m a nobody, and if you don’t take responsibility of this pregnancy I will personally go to your father and tell him, remember you told me he is a titled man and will not want disgrace from any of his children, so you better start thinking a better way out of this, or that disgrace you are avoiding will be knocking at your father’s door step, I don’t care if you went to Cambridge or Jericho, don’t care how rich you are all i want is for you to just accept this pregnancy let’s save ourselves from further drama, my own father can’t be cursing me for bring shame to him instead of blessing and yours will be praising you for being a good son that you are not…i

“kpai, kpai. It was a two sound slap that showed me the real stars, everything was quiet for about a second and my vision took another second to be cleared, this was a very dreadful slap, I have never received such since i was born, I didn’t know how to cry or talk i was only just waiting to get myself because i felt dizzy instant.

As i was about to fall down he rushed to me and held me before I could get to the ground.

“Ibukun, see what you made me do, your mouth will be running wild, you just talk without reasoning, and you know you don’t have common stamina to withstand a small slap yet you kept on talking, please sit down, I’m sorry, stop provoking me, I hate it when I’m annoyed and you won’t like the result, fine…fine, I will take responsibility, I will tell my father and will talk on what can be done, my dad will meet your father and proceed from there, maybe after giving birth, I will get you a house to stay, I will take care of you and the child, you can continue your life but you will not distraught my marriage to Adaobi, yes, she’s my fiancee and will get married as soon as she returns, I thought you wanted the fame that was your reason of throwing yourself at me, you threw yourself at me without getting to know me, I know I lead you along, I thought you were enjoying yourself with the fame and care i poured on you, I’m sorry anyway for slapping you, but let me warn you is not going to be an easy journey riding with me, you hanged the pregnancy on me and still threatening me at same time, I don’t take threats so lightly, I have accepted everything but this road with this your pregnancy in it will lead to nowhere, I’m telling you now, don’t say i didn’t warn you, I’m a very plain person, I will only you warn you before i proceed, go back to your school because i will be checking out of this hotel this evening I’m going back home, I have had enough drama for today already.”

After he finished talking, I went to carry my bag, he came to me and said he want to have one more round with me before i go, who I’m i to argue with him, after all I’m already pregnant for him and that slap is still ringing in my head like a primary school bell, I opened for him and he did to his satisfaction I cleaned up and gentle walk out and went back to school, is this how my life will turn out, what will happen to my studies, what will i tell my parents how do i cope with a child without husband, I just have two years to finish up with school so all my father’s sweat will go in drain, why am i so unfortunate, why can’t my name work for me, why is everything turning against me, Is that how Obinna will be slapping me in every small provocation, ooh father, father belived so much in me, I watch him defend us, love us unconditionally, provided for us everything while other fathers treat their female child as nothing, we are fathers Diamond, he never jokes with us, he assured his friends to watch out for his daughters, that non of us will disappoint him because of the training he has bestowed on us, mother too never jokes with us either, a wonderful parents any child could pray to have.

How can i do this kind of mistake again, father will hate me forever, he will be so hurt if i disappoint him, my sisters how do i even advise them and they listen when I’m not even worthy to do that, I can’t have an abortion, nothing will make me do that, is very deadly and i will never walk that path again, I will stay here and wait for Obinna to give me feedback on what I’m going to do.

Is being 2weeks and i have being waiting for Obinna’s call, he hasn’t call or returned any of my calls, time is going so fast and the days are ruining with speed, I’m still here, very soon people will know that I’m pregnant, already Sade knows and has ask me to do another abortion, I still stand on my word, on seeing how serious i am, she suggested i go home and face my parents, I’m two months gone already, Sade was right i need to go home and face whatever that comes, I’m i even capable of taking care of a child, what trouble I’m i bringing to father, I wish i have stayed home the day I set my eyes on Obinna and sleep or better still turn the whole house upside down and arrange them one after the other.

I’m inside a cab going home now, I’m too scared, my hand and leg shakes, I’m truly scared of what awaits me.

 

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