My Daughter – Episode 2

MY DAUGHTER EPISODE 2
By Amah

My name is Ibukun, meaning blessing, my father always use my name as a point of prayer for the family, he will say “just as I call my first child Oluwa Ibukun God’s blessing, and she have always live upto her name since she was born, may this same blessing continue to flow in this family, there will Always be celebration, joy and blessing in our life, non of my children will bring disgrace to this family but blessing all the days of our lives”.

My father prayer was ringing in my head again as i walk down the corridor with pain and tears in my eyes, Sade my roommate has suggested where the abortion can be done smoothly without pain or much bleeding, after i took different drugs but the stubborn fetus as Sade will call it refuse to go down, I spoke with Obinna and told him and he warned me not to bother him again until i got rid of the bas***d thing in my womb, I broke down and wept so hard, I have to tell Sade and after getting a lot of drugs and nothing was done she suggested the place that they finally did it, she said it won’t pain but the pain was piecing my skin, as if my flesh want to fall out, and the pain i feel within my heart was too much to bear, Sade was holding me as i walk out of that dreadful place, they call it nothing but it took alot from me I don’t know how i will be able to recover from the lost and guilt i feel

As much as i would have like to go home, I can’t because mother or father may eventually find out and i can’t let that happen, Sade said I shouldn’t worry that just within few days I will forget everything I’m feeling and continue my normal life but sincerely i don’t know if I will ever forget,

Tosin, my sister came to check up on me, after she didn’t See Me for one week and we are in the same university, when she came in and saw me just lying on the bed so weak.

“why didn’t you tell anybody that you aren’t feeling well, I could have suspend class and take you home myself or call Daddy to come over and get you, I asked Sade and she said you are fine, she never mention anything about you being sick” you aren’t taking your calls either, have you gone to the school clinic, it doesn’t matter anymore because I’m taking you home, you don’t look good Sister Ibukun..is it malaria,what happened to you….?

“I’m fine Tosin, I have taking drugs, stop worrying about me please, is just normal book stress and i don’t want to go home because mum and dad will worry and I will be having test next week, please stop worrying and promise me you won’t call anybody because of this… Please promise me now Tosin”

“okay, I won’t call mum or dad i promise, please if is serious don’t hide it make sure you call mum or even me”

After three weeks I was back to my normal self, nobody knows what i did except Sade and Obinna, I know Sade got my back, I have promise myself and this time around i swear it that such thing will not happen again, nothing will ever make me fall pregnant again or even go through abortion process, God forbids it, it will never happen and i mean it.

I avoided going home for sometime with the excuse i needed to face my studies, exactly what my parents want to hear, Tosin bring whatever I need and cash is being send to my account, me and Obinna are back again, we continued our sweet relationship, he became more caring and calls every hour just to check up on me, He comes to the school to check up on me if he didn’t See Me for one week, some ladies in school always droll over him, but he never pays them any attention, Sade likes him too, Sade will always ask me “Ibukun, how’s is your America fine bobo, when will he take us out again, abeg, let him know say i dey greetam anytime he calls o, I dey hail am or you can give me the phone so that i can greet him well,”

I will just laugh, Sade can be very funny, Tosin also got to know about him too, she was happy after she learnt that he was Chief Emeka’s Americana son but I told her not to tell our parents, I will tell them by myself on my own time

Obinna was every thing to me, I love him, he apologise for the pain i went through during the abortion and said such thing won’t happen again he will be very careful with me, I believed him, I hate to think of what it feels like to be in that passage that day, i promised myself it won’t happen and I will stand on that

Well Tosin couldn’t keep her mouth shut, she traveled home and told father and mother she couldn’t hide her excitement to them, father was calling me to come home I asked him what happened he told me what Tosin said. And said i need to be home as soon as possible I told him i will.

Is being 5months since i took of the fetus, my life has being going fine, i try not to have any regrets but anytime i look back i feel a pinch of regret and guilt which i know with time it will all disappear, I lodged with Obinna again that weekend, we had massive fun, I like it when i walk with him and draw attention from ladies and guys, I was cute myself he always tell me that I’m beautiful, I’m always happy to hear him tell me sweet thing and call me beautiful names, I’m not always with him but I know he only have eyes for me and i trust him, I feel so special when I’m with him.

After one of our weekend lodge because he never takes me to his house because of distance, I returned back to school and after one week i wasn’t feeling too well, I waved it off as one of those normal flue, if it persists i will take drugs and i will be fine.

It persisted, I bought some drugs and took and went home to see father like he has requested

“Ibukun, what are you doing with Chief Emeka’s son, I didn’t send you to school to be stupid, I didn’t send you to school to be a fool, if not your sister that told me and your mother we wouldn’t have known what was going on, Ibukun Oluwa, you are my daughter and you will bring blessing to us and not disgrace, you have to end whatever you have with that boy, Obinna, I don’t want to hear next time you are still together…

“Ibukun, God will not allow us to see bad thing, me and your mother work very hard to give you and your sibling the best and in return we will reap the fruit of our labour, non of you will bring disgrace to us because we train you all well, and Ibukun you are my first child your younger ones are taking your step, if you make a mistake it may affect the rest and i know God will not allow you to be foolish child, now listen, Obinna has a fiance, she is an Igbo lady and she grew up in America just like Obinna, chief Emeka told me himself and the lady has visited twice with him to the market before returning back to America and they plane to start their marriage preparation ones she returns back, Chief Emeka’s first son married an Igbo lady too and he is not interested in the fathers business that was why he called Obinna back to take over from him, don’t be deceive my daughter, Chief Emeka will not allow his sons to marry outside their tribe, he is a “Chief, a titled man Ibukun, you could have told me right from time but is never late, so a word is enough for the wise, face your studies, men shouldn’t be your top priority your study should be…””

My head was full, I couldn’t concentrate anymore, every other thing he said didn’t sink in again immediately he told me about Obinna’s fiancee.

I later went back to school I was sick for weeks but I keep waving it off, I was afraid to visit the school clinic, I wish it wasn’t what i was thinking, I didn’t tell Sade but she noticed and ask me to visit the school clinic if I’m sure it wasn’t another pregnancy, I have to go to another hospital not the school clinic and the heart wrenching news broke out, sounding like thunder in my ears “congratulations Miss Ibukun Lekan, you are 6week pregnant”

 

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