Devil In Red – Episode 6
© Goddy Francis
~ EMILY ~
I stayed in my room locked up as the thought of abortion flow through my mind. I was scared , that i was gonna die. Even if God decides to overlook it , I might not be able to conceive. That fear of not able to give birth.
Same time , I can’t give birth to a bas***d child. If he grows up what am I gonna tell him ? That your supposed father calls me a one night stand and ask me to abort you. Mom will be really ashamed of me. I thought about new York and that joy to finally go to college.
Why didn’t I listen to gold ?
Why was I so occupied with Mitchel bullsh*t ?
Jeez , he said it to my face after getting in between my legs and taking away my v-card.
One night stand huh ?
I cried and tug my face in the pillow. Ayanda was always good at giving terrible advise and it always sound interesting. One thing in me wanted to tell Gold but I thought about mom. Of course she will tell mom. Loud mouth.
” It’s no big deal.” Ayanda states .
” You can’t allow Mitch to kill your young dream by tying you up with a child. I got pregnant too remember ? Junior year in highschool.” She snapped at me clicking her fingers.
” It didn’t hurt. I can’t just watch a man try to tame my life with a child he isn’t ready to take care of. You gotta get rid of it just like I did. It won’t hurt.”
” I will take you to somewhere , it will be easier and safer.” She continues.
I sigh and hug my knee. A baby for a Mitchel.
I remembered the last call I had with Emily. Why was I feeling guilty like I committed a huge crime. I hate kids and I wasn’t ready to father one now.
I lit another round of cigarette and inhale the smoke. I flung myself on the couch and thought about the blood stain on the bedspread. I huff and pace around. I don’t love her , I can’t even love anyone. Where on Earth should I start from in the name of getting a kid from a black girl. A one night stand.
” f**k , I hate her…” I heard Allison’s voice scream through the passage way.
My door flung open as Tobias made his way into my living room with Allison who was already relaxed on a couch. She removed her stilettos and flung them leaning her back against the chair.
” What’s going on ?” I asked.
Tobias collected the cigarette from my hand and poured a bountiful amount of whiskey on a glass.
” Sharon Stine , stupid actress who thought she could buy the leadrole Ryan Noels.” Allison spat.
” Leadrole, Ryan Noels ?” I asked extremely baffled.
” I’m shooting a movie soon , maybe next month or two with the title STRIP SISTERS. Ryan Noels Is the supposed leadrole but Sharron Stine wants it. Why is Hollywood filled with slimy v****as.” Allison yelled.
” You really need to get laid.” Tobias muttered drinking the wine.
” I’m just fed up and tired with everything. Dad and all that boring stuff. Truth is being wealthy can be really boring sometimes.” Allison said and scoff.
” I’ll agree with you on that.” Tobias said and sat down.
” Tobie , stop being a p***y and be normal for once.” Allison snapped.
” Every single family of Cooper needs true love, it’s gonna help. We all need that special someone we could talk to , crawl to and cuddle on his/her arms . With love around being wealthy isn’t boring. Truth is the Cooper’s are boring and not wealth.” He said as he finally drowns the whiskey on his glass.
” So , have you finally find this love ?” Allison asked.
I chuckle as my subconsciousness carries a popcorn and sits at the front role to watch this drama.
” Na , she’s on her way. In Miami , taking a chopper to New York.” Tobias said and winked.
I laugh and totally forget I got a weird news today from a girl i just had fun with.
” Just shut your alcoholic mouth. We already have two much trouble to deal with. Tionna and a lot more. God knows what to expect next .” Allison said getting up to get a glass.
” I think Tionna is the biggest for now.” I finally spoke out.
” Who marries their ex boyfriend’s fathers ?” I added.
” Tionna, Tionna Petrov.” Tobias joked as we laugh.
” I’m going out , talk later sweet siblings.” Tobias said and walked out.
I let a huge sighed and turned to look at her Allison.
” I need to tell you something.” It’s so weird she’s my best friend and my only companion in my entire life. Some times I totally forgot I’m older than her.
” What is it ?” She asked sitting down.
” I got a girl pregnant.” I whispered.
” You what !” She shouts. I swelled my eyes at her as she covered her mouth.
” She’s African. I met her when i travel to SA.”
” What the f**k is wrong with her ?” Allison quaried .
” I don’t know. She was a virgin.” I spat.
” A what ?”
” It’s kinda weird. I really don’t know how I managed to have fun with her. Why would they think I’m willing to love , I don’t even know what that sh*t looks like.” I admit.
” What are you gonna do ?” Allison asked sitting close to me.
” I told her to her get rid of it. I don’t need a baby.”
” I hope she understands your reason. It’s so annoying when girls try to come up with such scandalism about pregnancy because my redhead brother is f**kin cute.” She says and ruffles my hair.
” Alli , stop , I’m not a kid.” I said Chuckling.
” Yeah I know. You have a Yacht . Not every single new Yorker can actually afford a Yacht.” She teased and wink.
I Chuckle and sweep my hair backwards. Allison always reminds me of my mom. Her redhead and her eyes , everything was just my mom.
” You should stop kidding about that yacht bullsh*t.” I said as she Chuckle.
” I hope i can.” She says and wink.
” I need to borrow your bathroom brother.” She says standing up carrying her shoes. I nod and she walk out.
My phone buzz and it was will.
” Speak.” I said on the phone.
” Got a call from Ben, boss.” Will said on the phone.
” Tell him I’m not ready , deliver the rest to Italy. I wanna be alone now , no business calls please.” I could feel Will nods on the phone.
” Alright boss.” He says and I hang up.
I toss my phone on the couch and pick up another cigarette to bore my boring time. I light the cigarette and puff out the smoke staring at my transparent wall thinking about the girl who got pregnant for me. It’s kinda weird , I’ve never heard such painful news before.
What if she’s just lying. Girls suck..
Ayanda was always talking about getting rid of the child. Why did I have to be so stupid. I barely eat cause the day Mitchel gave me that terrible news of getting rid of my child , i totally lost my appetite for food.
I thought about NYU.
My love for college.
Imagine dropping out of college if mom finds out about my stupidity.
I was caged in my own boring fantasy.
I spend almost everyday crying and thinking.
The thought of abortion always send cold down my spine.
Maybe I really need to , no one’s gonna find out and that includes my mom and sister gold.
” Emily..” Gold calls knocking on my door.
I quickly clean my eyes and turn to look at.
She smiles halfway and slouched into my bedroom. We might not have a dad but we lived the best lives ever. Our house and supposed college. NYU wasn’t any typical college , it was expensive.
” You’re okay ?” Gold ask.
” I’m fine , why ?”
” You look like who’s been crying for days.” I Chuckle to her correct guess .
” I’m fine.” I lie.
” You’re not.” What’s up with having a twin sister. I frown and look away.
” You can talk to me.” She insists.
” I’m fine , just go. I wanna be alone.” I said turning my back against her.
” Get out..” I yell without sparing her a look. She won’t understand. That pain of being rejected and you’re f**kin pregnant for the f**kin person that got you pregnant.
My door slam close and I was sure she has left. I turn around and truly she has left. I slump on my bed and thought about calling ayanda to get rid of this bad luck called Mitchel.
The house was empty when I entered on Saturday evening. Ayanda held me slowly and carried me upstairs since i just get rid of my pregnancy. I was weak and weary.
She drop me on my bed and drop my medication since the doctor ask me to take it , in the name of easing the pain.
” Will you be okay ?” Ayanda ask and I just nod.
” I will take my leave , call me if you need anything.” Ayanda says and I nod again trying to keep up with the pain.
She smiles and walk out of my room. I sat up and tried to reach for the bottle water sitting on my nightstand. I look down at my feet and discovered I was bleeding.
” Oh my God..” I whimper.
The ache in my abdomen increased and for once I thought i was gonna die. I crawl to the couch on my room to get my phone. The bleeding increased and the pain was severe , I was loosing it.
I cried but it was all in vain, I was alone and dying. I managed to get hold of my phone and quickly called my mom. She wasn’t picking up. I scream and poke my abdomen that was hurting more and more. I was covered by my own blood and I felt I won’t live to see the next minute.
I called gold and her voicemail replied. I scream and slam my fist to my bed , I was still on the floor bleeding. I called ayanda and she didn’t pick up same as gold , her voicemail was the only thing that replied me.
” Gold , if you get this , I’m sorry I pushed you out. The night Mitchel Cooper visited I had my way with him. I discovered I was pregnant and I was totally scared to tell you or Mom instead i told ayanda. I called Mitchel and he called me a one night stand , he said I should get rid of it…..” My breath was fading and my stomach was hot.
” Ayanda took me to a place and I got rid of it. Gold I’m dying , I’m bleeding. I might not live to see the next minute. If you get this message please come home quickly….” I felt a strong pain in my abdomen as my phone fell off my hand.
I tried to scream but no I couldn’t. I fell to the ground and everything was void.
To be continued